Heart

Each of us is given a heart for us to bear
One heart to be like the one who wear
It's the soul of our being
This red, throbbing thing
OPEN hearts should learn how to grow
CLOSE hearts should learn to let go
STRONG hearts should learn to defend
STURDY hearts just hang 'til the end
IMPRISONED hearts should learn to be free
BLIND hearts should learn to see
LONELY hearts should learn what is despair
BROKEN hearts should learn to self-repair.......
Those are the hearts that we often see
One specific heart for you and me
I wonder which heart is mine.....what about yours?

APOCALYPSE

Prologue:
It's been two weeks since the pandemic holocaust had occurred. Ever since that day, chaos and panic reigned in the land. no one knew what to do. Nature had turned its back on man. The human race is on the brink of extinction.. But man proved to be tougher for such a catastrophic event to contain. Government sent tanks, planes and every military power to disallow further dispersion of evil...
However... it wasn't just a simple term of national war catastrophe... it was something else...
                          ...I held my gun... Here goes nothing...

                                                                           I
Who knew that it would start right here in the Philippines, right where we are, in the Bicol region, Iriga City. This mysterious event that was either by magic or I-don't-know-what-the-hell-is-going-on. Maybe that's it. It must be Hell itself...
Two weeks before, everything was so normal. The skies, the peolpe, the birds, my life...everything. It was a sunny, fine day actually. Me and my girlfriend, Sophia, were walking in the park near the church... we were happy.
That was before the grounds broke open with fire-scorching hot fumes of dark energy steaming out of the cemented floor. We were stunned, afraid as of what might happen. My mind got to the situation as I began to hear flapping sounds. I pulled Sophia and ran to the street. We saw the asphalt road full of cracks as if something had forced its way out of the ground. The next thing I knew was people were screaming with fear and pain.. Sophia held me tight. I knew she was afraid...But not with the screaming but with the things flying at least 50 feet above us..
I was trembling with fear...
                                                                           II
One of those winged fiends landed down on the ground. It was large, having some physical qualities of a human. But it had big feathered black wings, a tail and two small horns on its head.. It blocked the road. An incoming truck managed to swirl to the left...
right towards us...
I didn't saw that one coming...
my heart beating faster, we were not quick enough to run...
I managed to push Sophia aside right before the truck made contact with my body with accelerated speed. I was thrown in the impact... I felt the pain like hell... I can't feel my body... I prayed to God to save my girlfriend... Darkness started to cover my eyes... I am DEAD MEAT... I just knew it...
                                                                           III
There was darkness...
I am dead....
Dead and Gone...
But somehow, I can still feel the part of the truck that had hit me. I can't believe it... I'm alive! I opened my eyes... I saw my girlfriend...dead.
She's dead... and I didn't even manage to save her... I felt something heavy in my throat... My eyes felt heavy... I began to cry... I cried...hard..."I'm sorry, Sophia...", was all I could say... My strength miraculously returned.. But it felt different... I suddenly pushed the truck with my bear hands!
I took the opportunity...
I stood up...
I saw a bright light coming from the heavens... people were going to the light...even the dead ones...and theres no mistake, I saw Sophia in the light with the other dead people...
I ran... I shouted... But she didn't heard me.
Suddenly a huge black winged figure stood between me and her.. It was the same monster as before. The light is disappearing now..
The figure punched me far to the back... The light was gone.. I could feel the pain but I'm not yet dead, as a normal being would be after being hit that hard... I saw beside me a shot gun.. I took it, aimed it at the beast, I pulled the trigger... the shell hit one of the beast's wings.. It growled in pain.. I fired a couple more shots.. seven pellets went directly to its forehead..It fell dead..I felt the power within me...
                                                                           IV
I don't seem to understand what"s going on... Then this shining guy came to approach me.. I felt the light from him. There were only words to describe it. It was Holy and Pure... It called out my name..
"Ray..." It spoke. His words pierced me like a burning sword but he talked like a normal modern person,"It's Hell on Earth now."

"Who are you?", I asked..
"Forgive me for lack of proper introduction. I am Arakiel, Earth of God.
                      At least I'm talking to an angel...
Arakiel : Earth is no longer Earth.. Hell had managed to break into your world...
Me       : Why? How?
Arakiel : Believe it or not, Hell ran out of space for all the corrupted soul from your world..
Me       : Well it could have been somewhere else bigger than here...
Arakiel : Being the only Catholic country in Asia, you guys are much easier to scare than other countries..
              Plus also the fact that you are miles away from neighboring countries... being alone and prone
              to attacks.. Lucky for you, Asmoday's base is somewhere near here.
Me       : Who the hell is Asmoday? And what good does that do me?
Arakiel : Exactly. Asmoday is the prince of the Demons..also known for being the serpent that deceived Eve..
              He founded Man's original sin.. Being close to him saves you the rush of killing him..
Me       : At least I'm gonna kill someone specia.. wait a minute! Why me?
Arakiel : I saw how you deal with the demon earlier. If you can kill him, everything will return to normal.
                He touched my gun... It glowed with light...
Arakiel : This gun will never run out of ammo plus it will do further damage to demons.
                Then He was gone...
                                                                    V
For two weeks I have been trying to find Asmoday's lair, killing a lot of demons on the way.. there is blood everywhere. But it doesn't matter... I will kill Asmoday. then everything will be alright..
Finally...
I got there...
Asmoday's base...
We return from the memories to the present situation...
I held my gun... Here goes nothing..
I entered a large Colosseum. I felt a huge mass of energy shaking the ground. He is here. I saw him..
A large, 40 feet, winged and tailed giant demon with seven horns sitting on a throne. In his left is a tree..large tree. In his right is an ever so beautiful fruit with two bite marks on it.. He saw me.. I looked at him..
Asmoday : Hello Ray.. we finally meet at last.
Me          : At last? In a few minutes it will be over..
Asmoday :HAHAHA! Do you think you can kill me? This world is mine! Thanks to Arakiel...
Me          : Arakiel?
Arakiel    : That's right. I was once a high ranking official of Heaven but I was removed from power...as
                 a fallen angel.. Lucifer thought that this would not be a good time to take the world..but I knew
                 better... I just thought sending you to kill Asmoday would be a fun game.. Torturing you here
                 would be beyond satisfaction... Earth is full of corrupted souls.It deserves to go to Hell!!
Asmoday : We will now rule this world..and not even a little soul like you can stop us..
Me          : Oh shut up. I came to finish what I started. I'll show you what this LITTLE soul can do!.Let's get
                 this over with you winged bastards..

Arakiel flew away.. I guess we would want to watch me suffer.. Well, not on my watch.. I fired my gun.. It hit Asmoday in the head..
Nothing...
Not even a scratch..
Then I saw the fruit..
I remebered what Arakiel had said about Asmoday..
The fruit must be the one Adam and Eve took their bite from!
The same fruit that founded the original sin of man..
I aimed for the fruit...
I fired...
It shattered to pieces...
Asmoday fell back...
Dead...
His burning hand had managed to grab on to one of the branches of the tree beside his throne...
It burned to ashes...
Arakiel screamed with pain...
I got the point...
I shot the tree...
It shattered to burning pieces..
Arakiel fell on the ground...
He had lost his wings...
I knew he had no more power. I pointed my gun at him...

ENDING 1:
I knew he had no more power.. I pulled the trigger. The shell flew. It went straight to Arakiel's forehead, killing him... Then everything started going back to normal..the buildings, the sky, the streets...every matter. But the people gone did not came back..
I was left alone...
I can't take this..
It was silent..
too silent..
then suddenly there was a gunshot..
I fell dead on the ground..

ENDING 2:
I knew he had no more power.. I pulled the trigger. The shell flew. It went straight to Arakiel's forehead, killing him... Then everything started going back to normal..the buildings, the sky, the streets...every matter. But the people gone did not came back..
I was left alone...
I can't take this..
It was silent..
too silent..
then suddenly there was a gunshot..
I fell on the ground..
But before eye closed my eyes, I saw the same light as before..
Sophia came down from it..
she saw me..
she ran towards me with tears..
she was crying...
then everything went black...

ENDING 3
I took mercy.. Arakiel, in return, helped bring back the people who died.. I saw the same light as before..Sophia came down from it... We hugged each other.. then all of the sudden, demons were surrounding us.. Arakiel had escaped.. The earth is still in Apocalypse... Arakiel had betrayed me..I never got the chance..

ENDING 4
I knew Arakiel had lost his powers.. I need not kill him anymore. Just then, then heaven opened and the same light as before beamed me and pulled me up...leaving Arakiel behind, surrounded by demons, defenseless due to the loss of his powers... As I went up.. I could hear his cries and screams begging for mercy.. I looked back.. One demon was holding his decapitated head while other more were feasting on his flesh.. I reached heaven..upon entering, my wounds were healed. my torn garments mended. I was purified.. I knew there's no returning now..that Earth is already destroyed in the apocalypse..
Then I saw Sophia..she was waiting for me... I ran towards her.. We hugged each other.. The End

ENDING 5
As I was about to shoot Arakiel, the ground broke and we fall staright to hell..I heard the devil laughing..I held my gun.. Here we go again..

My Afterlife Part 2

   There I was, back to my old life again. the energy I released had already returned to me. I stood in the crowd, hidden from the eyes of the woman I used to love. I saw her come out in her wedding gown holding the right arm of a guy...

   "Tsk. What an unfortunate guy", I said.

   I stepped away from the cathedral as a group of media crowded the area. The groom was the son of a famous senator...

   "So that's why...", I managed to say to myself.

   It was a sunny day. But on that day, cold winds blew over my shoulder. i knew something was not right...
   As the new wed couple approached their white limosine, a black SUV stopped right in front of the cathedral. I have a bad feeling about this...
   Six armed men stepped out of the vehicle...

  "Hmmm... That's one way to start my day."

   The crowd that surrounded the couple broke off and the guy was left to protect his wife... I had no choice... But i can avoid it... Will I do it? or will I just step away? It took me to where I was 2 years ago...


Back then I was destroying myself... But I had to let her go... I don't care anymore... I knew I was doing the right thing...

   It took me a while to get the last pieces of my heart to work again. Now, will I take the sacrifice of losing it again? or will I leave it all to their fate? I already let go of the woman who hurt me. I did the right thing bu tit took me until now to pull myself together again. Those two years were enough... I asked God for a miracle... But I am the only miracle available!!!!! Three men are pointing their guns at the couple... What will I do?


ENDING 1:

   I can't bear to see blood spilled right before my eyes... So I did what I have to do... I turned around and saw nothing of the killing... There were sounds of gunfire... cries... screams of pain... But I was already 50 meters away? sitting in a tree branch... I knew letting her live would be committing another mistake. That IS the rule of mortality... They just happened to learn it the HARD way... their cries echoing through out the distance, I smiled...

The cathedral lay there watching as lives are taken away...

...I was happy.


ENDING 2:

  "I may have let her go but i can't let her die!", that's the thing that came into my head... As much as I hate it, I had to save her... That husband of hers will die anyway...
    I smiled... I took out a small bottle of pills from my pocket...
    I took out one pill... I bit it... The liquid chemical oozed in the mouth, down my throat...
    Then in one big breath I blew out tons worth of flame...
    The experiment worked...
    I burned the six men to crisps...
the crowd turned as to find out where the fire had come from... but I was not there...

no one had witnessed my heroism to the girl who I used to love... except for the cathedral who also witnessed her wedding ceremony. Saving her, I made another mistake.. And I regret it...

My Afterlife

      And God said, "Let there be light". And there was light. And from this light, came out the greatness life had to offer. And this light showed and revealed what man was blinded from all this years.
     Thus, man was given the choice between good and evil... The weak was made to serve the strong... Streets were red with the blood of the innocent and their cries echoed in the air... That's how life works in my world. Life given and life taken - a simple rule of mortality. Fortunately to some, they learn quickly. But that ain't matter anymore... at least not in the afterlife...
     Back then when I walk amongst the majority of the "living", I had always considered myself a very considerable man. I live my life as a normal being, well too normal. For others,I may be weird but that point of strangeness had always stocked up to me... and I like it. Maybe I liked it too much...
     When my grampa died, I swore never to cry again. It made me stronger. I lived in the shadows of that incident never again to show my true form...that was until one day...
     It was a day in January...
     Who knew that that day would eventually trigger me to call lout my inner self from the abyss where I locked it up? Promises are meant to be broken so they say...
     Seniors' Recollection. Aaah...the good old days. To me it was the best day ever. That day I found out the true meaning of pain and anger. Shiela, that malevolent peice of scourching maledicted bitch, i should really "thank" her for everything. Yet thanking her would not be sufficient enough to quench my thirst for revenge. What am I saying? She's not even worth killing at all. But everything happened so suddenly. I saw her lips, her eyes, they were red. Then she uttered one by one, the words that shook the very presence of my world. Then I learned of a false accusation four years back. From my sit i wanted revenge but it was all too late... I never got the chance...
     I kept my inner side from showing itself bu tI forgot one thing: Angels can fall and Demons can read the Bible too. I hated her more than anything else in this realm...
     Things come and go and I finally forgot about her....
     In my journey back to my normal self, I found atonement in helping out others, being kind, gentle and patient. I was happy in giving happiness. All the way I met this girl who became the bond of my soul. She was everything to me. My inner self was telling me to stop it but I never listened. On the 8th month, i learned of the girl's lies and treachery. I should have learned to let go but it was too late. Noontime as messages are being relayed to me, I forced myself to let go...
     I was destroying myself... But I don't care... I need to let her go... I knew I was doing the right thing...
     All i wanted was someone who can take me as i am...
     I prayed to God for a miracle...
     But God...
     never...
     listened...

     There I was, the frame of what was left after the downfall of evil, lay lifeless and emotionless. I hear no Angels singing nor bright lights nor holy energy... Then i felt my body, my feet touching the ground, I taste air. I am alive! God heard my prayers. He never abandoned me and I thanked Him. I knew I did the right thing. In that relationship I was being tested and I was given a second chance. I was given freedom. I am free!!! And in her loss I have found redemption.
    All the while I learned many things... Not all can be judged by how good one looks or by how smart she is. They can't do everything just because if their big wings or halos or diplomas. I intended to serve neither... I've shown them how a LITTLE soul deals with the HIGHER class. No more loving for me I guess. It's what you do that always counts. The meaning of life IS life itself...

EPILOGUE
     Then suddenly, everything went black. Did I fail? Am i dead? Yes... Dead and gone. But I knew I did the right thing... I was smiling when I welcomed myself to my own realm... As if nothing had ever happened... in my afterlife.

        "I was destroying myself... But I don't care... I need to let her go... I knew I was doing the RIGHT THING"

-Based on a true story-

There's someone out there

ok... to start off, I'm in love... is it bad? I think not... it's just that I easily react to anything considered "worth of protection and guidance" I don't really want people to go bad-specially the ones I care for the most... but this one's different. She made me feel like I am special in a way that I want to continue with my. the kind who would understand my true nature and feelings. I'm afraid to tell her that I have feelings for her, afraid to let our friendship go AWOL...
But I'm a man... not a mouse (no offense Jerry and Mickey mouse). I've got feelings too you know but I can't put to consideration that there may be other people more deserving of someone like her but what if that guy is me? I don't know. But what I know is that I like the way she accepts me as a friend and it will always be her choice to love me or not... Life is so difficult...
Sometimes...I think of my other loved ones...
They are very lucky (or so I think so). The fact that life has many things to offer makes me feel ok when I'm down. But life isn't life without problems you know. I think it's just me who doesn't see things as they are... sometimt\es I don't even want to see it. There's someone out there... But sometimes I really hate to acknowledge that. I hate myself for this feeling (who wouldn't?).
People can get too tacky sometimes... too insensitive. That includes me... Buzzing fear rings through my mind that makes me go numb... I just have to accept myself as I am. But will others take it in a good way?
People who take love too seriously die... those who take it for granted regret it forever... those who laugh at it end up crying... but those people who hate it never did felt the pain of being alone...
It goes without saying,"Big people will make you feel big.Small people will drag you 'til you're lower than them". If there is a fear of loving, people would have named it Amorphobia... amor meaning "love".
I guess I still have to find myself... cause whether I like it or not, SOMEONE IS OUT THERE.

Maniac Teacher

This next blog is for all the girls in our class... no, no, no... in the school...
Ever had a feeling that someone is secretly stalking you and watching you while you are working? yet you can't quite put your finger at it 'cause you know that there are none? Well...(ok girls don't deny it) our school has one of those guys- An Engineering Drawing or simply EDR teacher of ours by the name of, shall we say X. Every EDR class he looks so normal, except for the fact that he doesn't do so when near the girls. He's old, he's kind but if there's one thing I don't like about him is how he makes his "Move" to the girls.
Believe it or not folks but this guy just loves YOUNG, SEXY, PRETTY and INNOCENT girls... Did I got the spelling right? X takes pictures of these girls when they are working on their drawing plates (a kind of activity) and he secretly looks into..well you know, the OBVIOUS body parts with the alibi of inspecting their work...
THIS BLOG IS TO SERVE AS WARNING...
I'm simply putting up a forewarned message for you girls out there who is studying at our school... You know who you are...

A Reply to Jorge

Hey... this would be my first time to do this so here goes...

 "There IS a first time for everything." But who would have ever guessed that it would be this soon? I try to always convince myself that it's probably another trick. Another normal girl that you would happen to say "hi" to everyday. I ask myself if I want to live just by myself and I say, "yes". Being friendly, I always try to make her smile until I grew fond of seeing her smile and never was a day that pass without that smile. Problems would follow but I tell her that it's life. Then she would hug me and say,"thanks". I had loved her...
But I had to stop 'cause it just isn't right... She has so many around her while I have none. Any guy could have given her what she wanted. So I say,"This has to stop". to make it happen, I have to forget about her. erase her completely from my mind. I won't even care if I destroy myself just to keep her out of me.
I loved her too much that I want her to be as happy as she can be...
Wouldn't you agree?